A Deal with God

                                      

When I decided to become a musician, I dealt with one of the biggest predicament of my life. I came from a poor family and my father died when I was still in High School. Although my mother, seeing so much potential in me being the first-born and an above average student really wanted me to go to college, it will not be an easy task for her. Only few schools offer a degree in music; and as far as I know those few are private schools. Meaning, they charge higher tuition fees, thereby making it more difficult for my widowed mother to send me to school; what more send me to study music in one of those private schools. Moreover, a hard ass even when I was young, I will not go to school and study anything if it’s not about music; although, in order to please her I also tried, but it ends up in a disaster.

A couple of years before that, when I was in high school, a couple of months after my father died; I was brought in a secluded province of my grandmother where there is no electricity and very backward. With nothing to do, nothing to read, and with so many crazy thing to think about, I ransacked the old boxes in my grandmother’s room and accidentally found a book entitled “The Four Gospels of Jesus Christ”, which I repeatedly read from cover to cover. This incident, plus the fact that I was born and grew up in a Christian country with prevalent religious activities and where practically everyone is a believer of God awakens and sealed my faith in The Supreme Being..

At that time (even at present) I am not a member of any sect or religion; but I know that God do exist, is real and very powerful. That is why, when I was in that situation where my strong desire to study music is an impossible dream and no one was there to help me pursue that dream, having no option and almost frustrated, I turned to God and made a deal with Him. Alone in my room and within my heart and mind, I sincerely spoke to Him, ''God if you would help me learn or teach me music, I promise that I will write songs that glorify you''. More or less those are my words, and it was not even a prayer. At that time, I was a young, arrogant, and ignorant person who have no real knowledge about the Supreme Person; nevertheless, He probably would have heard me and He responded to my plea. 'Because I came to a point where I am satisfied of what I know about music and it never left me. It became my food, my lullaby, my friend, my armor, my sanctuary, my life; practically gave me and became the source of everything I truly need or want. Moreover, it can make me happy and fulfilled.

The Supersoul was the first song I wrote for God, not really because of the deal and my promise (which being ungrateful as I am I had forgotten); but because it came naturally when I came to know Him; after all, how can I write anything about anyone I know nothing about?


                             
                                                     
                                                                                                                                                        Arlenkalifuentes